hell of a year EP

by doubt

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released February 19, 2014

all recorded, sung, and written by lucy elizabeth zweifel

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doubt Birmingham, Alabama

palm-muted power chords from a sad, bitter, teenage queer girl from the south

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Track Name: hell of a year
It's been a hell of a year
how did I end up here?
In a pile of regrets
and stolen cigarettes
too much cheap beer
should take away my tears
i'm alone again
where are all my friends?

it happens every time
I don't look out for mine
by now I should know better
nothing lasts forever
i don't think I care
anymore for this shit
so i'll drink myself to sleep
and I won't have to share
'cause i'm all alone
til i'm skin and bones
but that's okay
I won't have to find
my way
Track Name: gone
well these days i'm just a balloon
waiting to pop, never know what to do
and when that day finally comes
my apathy will show me
how badly i fucked up

and if i wanted to come back
to these people who think i'm a hack
it still wouldn't matter
it's already shattered
i'm battered and bruised and confused abused

when she fucked me up I was young
just 13 years old and she cut out my tongue
she fucked me and left me for dead
she made all these monsters lay eggs in my head

i left her behind far too late
i found someone else, someone without that hate
but I didn't matter enough
now they're both gone and now i'm fucking up

e-
-very
-thing

i'm already gone
Track Name: long walks and cigarette stops (jeffrey's song)
winter nights in birmingham
the streets are dark and i'm a sham
you know my friend, you're always here
don't seem to care how much I share
we're on the corner by the library
sharing stories of false elation
you say be careful walkin' home
you know I haven't got one
and you should know for sure by now,
we all know you're the safe one

these long walks
and these cigarette stops
these days are all I live for
til I stumble home, too cold to turn the key
and pass out tonight on the kitchen floor

sittin on the curb
by your apartment complex gate
smokin my last cigarette, and waitin here on freight
you said these drugs would help me fuck
my everlasting bitterness
they never came, but that's okay
now both of us are in this mess

these long walks
and these cigarette stops
these days are all I live for
til I stumble home, too cold to turn the key
and pass out tonight on the kitchen floor
Track Name: my revolution
Well I know this system's fucked
but I don't know how to look up
all this theory doesn't matter
when you're head's out on a platter tonight

I say I want a revolution
pretending I know what that means
if I did it'd all be easy
but i'll never know the way to get clean

so for now i'll keep listening
to the ones who know better than me
and one day I might just follow
but right now it's just a hollowing scene

'til then i'll just stick to my guns
do my best to survive in this one
for me survival is resistance
and resistance is just all that i've got